Something Less Imagined

I closed my eyes against the darkness of a night I'd once forgotten
And changed the way I knew to feel
into something less imagined
Something less...
Real
Somewhere in the middle
With you and a box of sandwiches
A dream made somewhat slanted
And a shape made up of stars
"Play your cards right, my boy,"
A voice from somewhere deep within me sings
"And you just might win her heart tonight."
But I knew I could not
Not with dreams shaped like old beliefs
And colored in the nighttime with a handle
To an old and leering world
I knew I had moved on from there
From there...
Such a world so far away
Disheveled in the corner
Now I lie
Waiting for the turn of love
To stroke again its chime
And call me to a place of waked beliefs
And allow me once again
To close my eyes and then forget
The chill of the night I left behind
So long ago
Oh, how long ago
When it was
When you had loved me so
And I was more than this to you.

4 May 2007
3am